Just in case you ever start thinking I’ve got it all together, or worse, that I think I’ve got it all together, then you’ve got to know this about me:
1. My kids eat Pop Tarts for breakfast quite often. I’m pretty sure those have HFCS and maybe even GMOs, but I try not to lose any sleep over it.
2. I don’t clean out the refrigerator often enough. I almost cleaned it out last week because I smelled something fermenting, but then I found what it was and stopped cleaning.
3. I’m working at losing weight. Why? Because I’ve got weight to lose. I’m 11 pounds down, but I’ve got a long way to go. I’m taking it one day at a time.
4. One day, I’ll make peace with Mt. Washmore, but in the meantime, I’ve got mountains like this one to conquer.
5. If I’m not really good at something, I don’t even try it. And if I do manage to put aside my perfectionism to try it once, I often won’t try it again. I hate failing. That’s why I hated running for so long. I call it the paralysis of perfectionism, and it’s so absurd. It’s a pride issue, an area of sin that I struggle with.
6. Sometimes I question our decision to homeschool, especially when the kids do something crazy and messy, like pulling everything out of the dresser and sitting in the top drawers. If my 4 year old were in preschool, she wouldn’t be home with me to make messes…or memories.
7. I often think “Really?!? They want to eat again? Didn’t I just cook dinner yesterday? I love to cook, but it was so much easier when there wasn’t as much pressure on me to do it.
8. I can’t stand pregnancy. I love babies and the idea of being pregnant, but I don’t like having my life hijacked by 9 months of morning sickness. In fact, I kind of want one more baby right now, as in “let’s get pregnant tomorrow,” but when I think about going through 9 months of misery, having a horribly messy house, and eating too many processed foods because I’m too exhausted from vomiting to cook, I just want to cry. So we’re trying to have a little break from pregnancy right now, unless God has other plans for my womb.
9. I struggle with patience and my temper, which is why I’m taking the Orange Rhino Challenge with a few friends.
10. I generally decide that it’s time to scrub the shower when it becomes its own ecosystem. And no, I won’t show you pictures of that.
And even now, as I prepare to hit “publish” on this post, I’m tempted to change some of it so that you don’t know “the dirt” on Gabby. But transparency is a good thing, so I’ll let you see me as I am, warts and all.
But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
I love motherhood & homemaking, really I do, but they are so hard at times and it can be easy to get discouraged. In sharing my struggles with you, it’s not that I want to celebrate my sin or revel in my weaknesses. But I want you to know that when you’re still in your jammies at noon or you lose your temper again with your little girl that I get it. I do.
We are works in progress, and the only way we can make it through the day is by the power of God to supply what we need to make it, in terms of energy, patience, love, and even rest when we realize that the dishes can wait; rest is more important.
I want God to grow me and change me, and through Motherhood, He’s doing just that.
What about you? What’s some evidence that you don’t have it all together? Is there an area of housework that’s tough for you? Hate cooking? What are you challenges?