Happy Birthday to my sweet baby boy! My sweet surprise baby boy.
You are the baby that I wasn’t ready for. The baby that made me know what a surprise pregnancy feels like. The baby that made me laugh so hard when I saw those two lines on the pregnancy test.
I wanted more babies, but maybe not just yet. Your big brother, Andrew, was only ten months old when I saw that positive pregnancy test, and he was still under the care of his lung surgeon, who removed half of his left lung as a newborn. I was terrified at the thought of another newborn and possibly another lung defect and another life-saving surgery. But the day after finding out you were in my womb, I heard the surgeon say that we had no more worries. Andrew was released from her care. I saw the x-rays that showed two full healthy lungs.
I didn’t know what the future would hold with you, and while I worried sometimes, I also knew that it would ultimately be good. I could trust God to provide for the pregnancy He surprised me with.
So He gave me an easy baby. One of those babies that I heard existed–the kind that just wake up to nurse and go right back to sleep. One of those babies that smiles and laughs all the time. That’s you.
He knew I needed you. He knew our family needed you.
In God’s perfect, though painful plan, less than six weeks after your birth, your sweet Papa would have a heart attack after an afternoon on the golf course. And still we grieve. But still we have great joy.
We have peace in Christ, joy in His salvation, and the hope of eternity. And even at the funeral, I had a reminder of new life there in my arms. You, baby boy.
God knew we needed you. You’re the happiest baby that anyone has ever seen.
You laugh–oh how you laugh! When I change your diaper, show you new signs to learn, or simply talk to you or nurse you, you’re smiling and laughing.
Everywhere we go, people are amazed at my happy little guy. Yet you’re the baby that I didn’t plan.
I’m so glad that God always has a better plan for me than I do.
Happy Birthday, baby boy! You are a blessing!